one of us is missing

now he’s gone. home does not feel like home this evening. missing him so much.

i did not want to go home after bringing him to the airport. started to clean his room & the kitchen as soon as we returned just to stop me from feeling the pain. now it does not even smell like him anymore …

yes, it is totally okay for me to let him let go, i am really happy about him making plans & starting to move … why does it hurt so much???