… happy & somehow wistful, in LOVE, loving, believing, free, un-knowing, safe although not really grounded … .
grateful for the last weeks & especially for the last days.
nunca me senti tão bem.
ik hou van jou.
my heart knows nothing but love.
wishing to be loved, the wish or expectation to be loved (treated) in a certain way, is what my mind is asking for.
born from fear, learned for years.
unfulfilled wishes hurt. and help me to heal.
learning to communicate. to ask for what i need, in each moment.
learning to stand the pain if i can’t get it (either because i did not ask or because my request was rejected).
deciding to keep my heart open. in every moment. again and again. in spite of the pain. instead of closing it. staying with myself. not betraying myself. not abandoning me in an attempt to protect myself.
LOVE simply IS.
… these days i feel love. sadness. pain. exhaustion. anger. disappointment. longing. love. <3 and gratitude.