spending half my days in the forest these days.
losing my mind (lost my mind)
finding my soul (and my body)
i’m all body. a soul in a body.
remembering the first night
when we met lately
crying like i was all tears and pain and sadness.
making love felt different then ever before.
no yesterday, no tomorrow.
me, all body.
listening to my soul, speaking through my body.
i am so aware of my body, its needs, its sensations.
experiencing everything inside me in such a physical way … fears and happiness, love and yearning, missing and peace … showing me especially how many fear there is inside of me.
and how much yearning …
just feeling it, not thinking very much, letting it come, letting it go.
me, all body.
want to lose even more of my civilized mind = fears.
want to act much more from my belly, my heart.
want to LIVE even more in the MOMENT. no tomorrow. only NOW.
into the forest i go
to lose my mind
and find my soul
i finally found a training stable for western riding near here. it’s in elmenhorst, about half an hour by car. even better, m & me can both ride there, at the same time. yay 🙂
i love this way of riding. of interacting with the horse.
& … not only that riding is great physical exercise. it is so much more. kind of therapy. for me. makes me be totally “now”.
i am really happy to see how the days are getting longer and that it is becoming a little bit warmer these days! spring is coming 🙂
for many weeks now i feel i need much more sleep … usually i perfectly get along with 5 to 6 hours of sleep, but in winter … so dark and cold … well, it is just natural to go to sleep when it is dark, instead of staying up and trying to work. fortunately, i know that my energy will rise again!
i also find it harder to do some sports in winter. when it is really cold outside, i don’t even want to leave house for a walk. usually, i am jumping on my trampoline in the morning, first thing on getting up, and doing some exercises afterwards, like sit-ups and pushups. a few weeks ago i bought bar-bells to do some more exercises for my neck and shoulders, but somehow i don’t manage to use them regularly.
since yesterday, we have a pull-up bar in out kitchen door. up to now, i don’t even make ONE pull-up but hopefully this will change soon 🙂
the kids love the bar … everybody uses it whenever passing!
of course there are lots of things … i like to call them everyday-sports … like carrying my daughter, running to follow her when biking, carrying crates of fruit and so on … but this does not seem to be enough. how do YOU exercise? how do you make it to exercise enough, especially together with small children?