for about 5 weeks or so it is predominantly cloudy here, often misty, often raining. indeed it is warm, but i am missing the sun & the blue skies. furthermore, moon is waning, only 2 days left until new moon. i have always been sensitive to the phases of the moon, bursting with energy when moon is full and feeling week and vulnerable when it is new moon. and i am still working with what liedloff is reminding me of. so these days i am a bit … confused. feeling down. feeling lonely.
today i have been talking to my friend in germany … so lovely to hear her voice, to speak to her, even if we only had a few minutes … she told me about a great school in germany, giving them the possibility to really unschool, inside this “school” or at home, just the way they want to. sounds wonderful! for a moment i was wondering if we should go back … living in germany, legally! the possibility for my daughter to decide, day by day. lots of other people, children, adults, our friends near to us.
then i remembered. there had been more reasons for me to leave. there are still lots of regulations, controls in germany, concerning children, concerning the way we live, even the way we eat. life is more expensive there, less easy. i really don’t want to stand a german winter again!
no, i don’t want to go back!
there are things i am missing in my life but these are independent from where i am. i am on my way. and i am going on. searching. inside and outside. guess i won’t stay here forever …